Varalakshmi Rajkumar, Chennai: ‘Sri Swamiji has come to teach us how to eradicate karmic bonds, to lighten our sorrow, and when we are ready, He reveals the knowledge of ‘Who Am I’.

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Varalakshmi Rajkumar, Chennai

Sri Swamiji is not a Guru whom I ask for things (materially and spiritually), for me He has come to teach us how to eradicate karmic bonds, to lighten our sorrow, misery and pain and when we are ready, He reveals the knowledge of ‘Who Am I’.


My father, C.K. Rajaram Naidu, an Industrialist, was an ardent devotee of His Holiness Sri Sri Sri Ganapathy Sachchidananda Swamiji from 1974. He later became a member of the Jnana Bodha Sabha Trust. The members of the Trust were a conglomeration of minds, ethics and professionalism. Anyone looking at this group and how they interacted with Sri Swamiji couldn’t help thinking that they were a group of friends with a bond flowing from many births. The most salient remembrance which a few of us have, of this wonderful bond, was the way Sri Swamiji treated each of them and the absolute love, affection and commitment with which this group worked.

Our relatives were perplexed with this new found friendship and asked my father why he wanted to serve a Guru when he was so well placed in life. My father saw Sri Swamiji as one being worthy of love and respect, and that love grew into an atmic bond between them. The trust performed seva not only for the Madras Ashram, but extended its dedicated service to the Mysore Ashrama. My father was instrumental in arranging the first trip of Sri Swamiji’s abroad in 1976. They included; The United Kingdom, The United States and Trinidad.

This was the beginning of many trips for Sri Swamiji, and for the devotees abroad it was the blessed moment in their lives when they would meet their beloved Sadguru once again. This event in Sri Swamiji’s mission will always be linked with my father, Mr. Rajaram Naidu and we are extremely touched by this wonderful opportunity that was given to our family by Poojya Sri Swamiji. Sri Swamiji was everything to him and to us and He became the centre of our family.

Soon turbulent times visited us and our world around us collapsed, my father tumbled and fell so far that friends and relatives lectured my father that he was fine before his meeting with Sri Swamiji and running after the Guru had brought him to his knees. Sri Swamiji became the center piece of mockery from our family and friends.

My father never bothered to reply; neither did he ask Sri Swamiji for help, he felt he had no need to tell Sri Swamiji anything for Sri Swamiji would take care of all our problems without us even asking, as He was one with us. When my father hit rock bottom financially all his friends and relatives turned their backs on him, but the only one who stood beside him like a pillar was our beloved Sadguru Deva.

My father had lost his health by then and my mother approached several people whom my father had helped but of no avail. One day Sri Swamiji came to our house unannounced with a pouch containing money and a car, He said to my father, “Rajaram, I cannot watch you struggling without a vehicle, you are the person who introduced me to cars and flights, here is my car; take it! You have debts and problems, I cannot see you suffer, please take this pouch. As a brother and friend it is my duty to stand by you.” Thus Sri Swamiji showed us that a Guru is mother, father, sibling and friend. I would firmly say that if Sri Swamiji was not in our lives, life would have defeated us. I also saw the transformation in my father, who had learned from his bond with Sri Swamiji “Atma Gnana”.

I was extremely fortunate to spend most of my childhood days along with my brother with Sri Swamiji in the Mysore Ashrama. Around the age of ten, with the other children in the Ashrama we had the blessed opportunity to spend our summers with Sri Swamiji. We were some of the most fortunate ones who got the opportunity to bathe Him, eat all His left over food and sleep in His room. We were a bunch of kids fighting to bathe Sri Swamiji and hence He would give His right hand to one of us, left to another, right leg to one, left to another, scrubbing the back was for another and shampooing the head was the most coveted part of all. At nights we would lie on the ground all around His bed. He would tell us stories, sing songs, play with us and make us laugh. Next morning if He found any of us still sleeping when He woke up, He would roll with all His might from the bed straight upon the one sleeping, waking us with a fright. He gave us candies and chocolates, He taught us yoga, bhajans, various sloka and introduced us to satvik Ashram food. We learnt to be contented with what we received and He indirectly taught us not develop taste nor demand for anything more.

He was our mother and our father and when we were with Him; we never missed the comforts of our home or our parents. He would scold us when at fault, He would make us cry and laugh and in His unique way taught us to become good people through play.  He was our playmate and our father and for those who watched He may have seemed like Sri Krishna with His playmates. Today as a mother of two, I recollect those wonderful memories and re-live them by telling them to my children. Blessed were we.

When my younger sister was a few months old, my mother brought her and placed her at Sri Swamiji’s feet. He picked her up and called her, “Deepa.” My mother told Sri Swamiji that her name was Dhanalakshmi and not Deepa. He asked my mother what was the meaning of Deepa? My mother said, light or lamp. Sri Swamiji told her that Dhanalakshmi also meant light or lamp. He then called my father and said to him, “There is something I have to tell you about this little one, she is the one who has brought you to me.”  My parents looked puzzled and Sri Swamiji continued, “There is a devotee named Krissan Kumar who lives in Delhi, this child has come from that home. I need your help to propagate and teach to the world and she is the angel who has brought you to me.”

My parents did not understand what Sri Swamiji was saying and asked Him to explain. He then said, “Mr. Krissan Kumar’s second daughter was named Deepa and she died of cancer. Her parents were shattered by her death, they came to me and I consoled them by telling them that Deepa will be here again, and that they will see her, so here she is now. I must call Mr. Krissan Kumar so that he can see his Deepa again.”

My father then remembered a photograph he had seen in the old Annapurna Mandir at Mysore. It was that of a little girl. He was attracted to it so much that one day he asked Sri Swamiji for it. My father took the photo and kept it at home in the pooja room. My relatives told my father that the photo did not belong on the altar, for the child in the photo was dead. My father did not listen to anyone and he kept the photo. Later on he learned that the girl’s name was Deepa. So that day my parents found out that my little sister, just born, was none other than Mr. Krissan Kumar’s daughter, Deepa. Until this day Sri Swamiji calls her Deepa. When my sister got married my father had passed away already so Mr. Krissan Kumar came and performed the role as her father in the wedding ceremony. This is one of the many miracles of Sri Swamiji.

While growing up Sri Swamiji blessed me always with the word “Strength”. I wondered why. When troubled descended upon me, the only words He uttered were “why have you molded yourself like this. Am I not there?” Those words remain in my mind to this day and I learnt that good, bad, joy and pain were all a state of mind and once we realized the truth behind our existence and our bond with our Sadguru for Janmas, we can break free of all feelings. I took Sri Swamiji’s word as my life’s lesson and I have changed as a person and my entire outlook towards life has completely changed. All I had to do was make the effort and He did the rest. I have also learnt that serving Him eases the pains of life. We don’t have to talk to Him or get His darshan to feel better, we only need to serve; He knows how to cure. With the loving grace and guidance of Sri Swamiji I have grown up and am married with a beautiful family and hold a profession as an advocate.

Being associated with Sri Swamiji all my life, I have learnt to correct myself in many ways from observing Him. He wants us to conduct ourselves and live our lives in a good manner. Sometimes He instructs us verbally and sometimes by actions. His life is His message. His noble actions, benevolent characteristics, dynamic personality and overall sweetness speak for themselves. The most wonderful quality of Sri Swamiji is that He never forgets a single help extended to Him, however insignificant and blesses such devotee with abundance, never ceasing to forget that little help rendered.

Sri Swamiji is not a Guru whom I ask for things (materially and spiritually), for me He has come to teach us how to eradicate karmic bonds, to lighten our sorrow, misery and pain and when we are ready, He reveals the knowledge of ‘Who Am I’.

To show my love, devotion and gratitude to Him, the best thing that I can do is to follow His command intrinsically and strive to be His best child. He is my past, present and future.

Jaya Guru Datta


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    • Sreevidya Balasubramaniam on May 2, 2013 at 5:07 am

    Jaya Guru Dutta! Thank you for sharing your experience with Sri Swamiji. You have said so much in this short narration in such lucid and touching way. Thank you, Sri Guru Dutta, Sreevidya

    • mukund mohan on May 2, 2013 at 8:09 am

    Jaya Guru Datta !! Amazing experiences with Sathgurudeva. Thanks for sharing !! Sri Guru Datta !! Om Namo Hanumathe Namah !!

    • Divya Kesarinath on May 2, 2013 at 9:58 am

    Jaya Guru Datta. It is so wonderful to read Varalakshmi’s experiences. I remember my childhood days having met her and spending good old days in Mysore Ashrama. Thanks for sharing.
    Sri Guru Datta

    • Sai Pramoda Bapatla on May 2, 2013 at 2:17 pm

    Jaya guru Datta.It was wonderful reading your experience with Appaji. Thank You for sharing with all Datta Family. Sri Guru Datta.

    • simi on May 2, 2013 at 2:25 pm

    Jai Guru Datta…really nice to go through the lines,thnx for sharing your treasure with us….Sri Guru Datta

    • Lakshmi on May 2, 2013 at 4:59 pm

    Jaya Guru Datta Varalakshmi Garu. Very very touching and you put your experiences in a very nice way. You are so lucky to spend all those beautiful moments in the ashram with HH Swamiji.
    Sree Guru Datta.

    • Indira Kondaveeti . on May 2, 2013 at 6:17 pm

    Jaya Guru Datta .Thank you for sharing your experiences .Om Namo Hanumatye Namah .

    • Karen Williams on May 2, 2013 at 8:07 pm

    Such a magnificent story recounted with the splendor of deep devotion and purpose. Jai Guru Datta. It is a wonderful read.

  1. Jaya Guru Datta! Blessed soul. Sri Guru Datta.

    • Ravita Singh on May 2, 2013 at 10:21 pm

    Very thought provoking stories. Thank you for sharing. Jai Guru Datta.

    • Lakshmi Manjunath - Melbourne on May 2, 2013 at 11:50 pm

    You are a blessed soul and picked up by HIS Holiness exclusively. I got tears while reading about HIS compassion. ofcourse, HE is all in all to all of us. It will be a blissful experience just to be HIS child for rest of our lives and live happily & peacefully. Jaya Guru Datta – Lakshmi from Melbourne

    • KUMAR GANAPATHIRAMAN CHENNAI on May 3, 2013 at 1:18 am

    Great Experience!!! Touching one. Thanks for Sharing. Only gifted will get His Contacts. As said we have come to existence to eradicate karmic bonds and Sri Swamiji never forgets is the same in my case where I used to go for Yoga Classes at Kutchery Road in early 1970s under Sri Anantharaman He picked me up and put me in His Boat in 1994. The period from 1970 to 1994 is the period of my karmic bonds period. Sending our Pranams to Sadguru Deva Om Namo Hanumate Namah, Jaya Guru Datta

    • sowmya on May 3, 2013 at 7:33 am

    Wonderful experiences with guru namohanumathe namaha.

    • rose sheppard webster on May 3, 2013 at 5:40 pm

    Oh to bathe Appaji!!! How wonderful! A feast of a visual you have given me 🙂 Thank you for sharing your beautiful experiences.

    • sumangala hegde on May 4, 2013 at 12:31 pm

    JGD…Thank you soo much for sharing Guru`s grace in your life …Yesss HE changes rather moulds us to a better human being strength to face life`s ups & downs..VV greatful To Our APPAJI.JGD

    • brahma on May 4, 2013 at 4:20 pm

    Jaya Guru Datta
    Thank you for your wonderful report. It was a great joy to read about your and your fathers experiences.
    Sri Guru Datta
    Om Namo Hanumate Namah

    • Sundaram Sambamoorthy, Melbourne on May 5, 2013 at 5:30 am

    Thank you for sharing your experience with Swamiji. It gets tears to our eyes. Swamiji is so compassionate that Swamiji protects us and takes care of us. It is a Blessing to be at his Lotus feet forever and ask for nothing more. Sri Guru Datta.

    • karuna on May 5, 2013 at 9:00 am

    Jai Guru Datta, Dearest Veralakshmi…your story brings tears, laughter, as well as surprise…an absolute wonderful account of life with Appaji…can’t thank you enough for sharing this with all of us…your entire family is so, so blessed! You also write extremely well…remembering Appaji writing recently…if you know the alphabet…you can write a book…i am planting a seed this morning in hopes that it will grow…Sri Guru Datta Veralakshmi, and hope that someday we will meet…

    • uma on May 5, 2013 at 2:42 pm

    jai guru datta. your experience is indeed great.very fortunate to be associated with swamiji from ur childhood. thanks for sharing with all of us.

    • sachin on October 20, 2013 at 11:20 am

    jai guru datta thanx for sharing such a great expereince…..with sadguru….

  2. jgd thanks for sharing sgd

  3. jayagurudatta

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